As a child, I learned that for myself.
But I was an ‘old kindred spirit’ of a little girl who loved sitting around the knees listening to the old folks’ run their traps about everything and nothing. My ears were small, but wide, and I was all in grown folks’ business back then, because … well … it was better than being a child.
I was young and now I am old(er) … and the miracle that has taken place in my life very recently is that my own children and family have now come to the LIBRARY of my life. To the realization of matters that I spoke about 25 to 30 years ago that they didn’t want to hear or take to heart.
The Lord has given me and gifted me with a prophetic spirit, a gift of sight and insight, of teaching from being taught … and what we see right now is not the reality of what is going on in the Heavenly Realms.
Yes, my sons are still young “enough” to correct their variegated pathways and trajectories in life. At 40 maybe I, too, was just getting STARTED. but now I’m just getting started all over again at NEARLY 60. [Definitely WAY younger than Trump.]
This Black History Year serves as a reminder that by the time my mother was my eldest son’s age, 41, she was dead and gone. She, too, was crazy like me; but she wasn’t stupid. Neither am I.
Seeking Good Advice and Wisdom in Counsel
Yesterday, these young’uns (LOL – my youngest son and sister) came by my house to hear me out for the first time in all the years I’ve ever pined for them to listen to what the future held.
It was an incarnate blessing that they finally heard my HeART after all these years of crying and travailing in prayer and feeling sad that I knew what was coming and I could not stop it from happening.
I have much to be proud of that they (my sons) have adjusted to higher-end Black men in this season, yet I know what they missed out on in the past by not doing what I asked from the start.
But such is a Mother’s heart to keep a-praying and keep a-moving.
Prayers for the Black Community At-large: Choosing Us
Now this, even as I descend into the ‘ageism’ that I will now get from Black people to top off the racism that I got from whites… just icing on the cake of my world.
History has shown that no one survives without elder counsel.
It is the reason we are seeing, in this season, a repetition of the past.
Not listening before, not heeding…doomed to repeat it, as the saying goes.
CYCLICAL – my favorite book of the Bible: Ecclesiastes.
Clear-eyed realism. (I use KJV because the Scriptures are already out of chronological order and misinterpreted or misspelled in many places, so newer variations and versions only serve to make wrong interpretations even worse and more confusing, LOL.)
5 Get wisdom, get understanding: forget it not; neither decline from the words of my mouth.
6 Forsake her not, and she shall preserve thee: love her, and she shall keep thee.
7 Wisdom is the principal thing; therefore get wisdom: and with all thy getting get understanding.
8 Exalt her, and she shall promote thee: she shall bring thee to honour, when thou dost embrace her.
9 She shall give to thine head an ornament of grace: a crown of glory shall she deliver to thee.
Habits and Habitats
Two things: (a) I watched the habits and patterns of these racial gulfs that were created across the nation on Obama’s watch that also gave rise to the Trump administration. (b) I add to that the overarching fact that Africa (land of our forefathers) is indebted to Europe and the fact that Europe doesn’t have any resources to call that debt except to take what is not theirs – the land that was not given to them by God.
I also know for a fact right now that if the white community attacked and labeled me a “radical” anything, as has been done with others at this point, the support that I would need from the Black community is not there.
There are many reasons for that lack of support — mainly fear, doubt, hesitation, unease, and everything else up to and including “toljaso” syndrome; but I don’t expect that back-up because I’ve ticked off quite a few of us and it was my bounden duty to do so.
The Reach from Here To There
There is more than discrimination based on skin-colorism: There is age, looks, height, skin shade, hair, jealousy/hatred, sexual preference, whether or not a person is a believer, what they believe in, ‘star-bellied sneeches with stars upon thars’ -thank you “Dr. Seuss”, what neighborhood you came from, what is your family pedigree, what titles, what degrees, the whole nine stomped yards and then some.
All created and sponsored and paid for by Europeans into the Diasporas for the intent and purpose of education and illusions. If we can think up a reason to think we are better than someone –anyone– else, it’s all there to behold.
This is how we live in this hour, this dispensation of grace and graves.
Christians, evangelicals, and Liberal/Conservative Believers alike are not an exception to that. They don’t, we don’t, escape it because we believe in God. We live in a fallen world and it won’t be unfallen until it is time.
Except that we hear the Voice of God loud and clear, His Heart and desires for our lives, it is the only exception to that.
While we don’t rely on miracles, we are not all that ‘weak’ or uneducated, as some seem to think. We expect these miracles because they are a part of our lives, and only because we know how to listen and follow through on godly mandates according to scriptures-the words of our ancestors-as long as it is not taken out of CONTEXT.
Spit on me now. You will see me again, even if it’s long after I’m gone.
To That End
We have become and are now addicts, codependents and enablers of people with the worst and most vile and sinful (TOXIC) and dastardly ways of living ever known in the history of the world.
Unfortunately, our loose-lipped loose-hipped party-up “Joshua Generation” habits are the cause of a lot of it.
I labored at the feet of my ‘hood elders and watched them get spat upon by every party hardy get high clubbing sex drugs rock’n’roll spirit who never wanted a job where they had to actually work for a living, and by every family dissident even while I was parenting my own and trying hard to keep them from going in that direction.
I did not send them to church, I took them, even while nearly everybody else was at ‘da club’. I beat the Pastor to church, all four children in tow, waiting on the keys and the open door.
But they had to come into their own sooner or later. And now they are home. “Mama you was right.”
Uh uh, son. I told you I’ll be here when you come home. Not “itoljaso,” but “I’ll be here when you get back.”
Sooner or later, everybody got to go HOME. Me included.
Flipt the Code Switch
We used to think evil was evil and good was good, friends were friends and enemies were enemies and now they are frenemies and ‘friends with benes.’
Nowadays, good is evil and evil is good. Even THAT is found in the Scriptures of a LIVING eternal God and not of a dead Pharoah in Egypt.
The Bible tells us how it is that this current Trump Administration is EVERYTHING that God hates, yet and still…
It has broken more than half of The Ten Commandments and six out of seven mandates of scriptures covering ‘what God HATES’; and yet …
The race piece is still that Barack Obama, gay supporter and all, would not have lived long enough to do what Trump is doing and walk away unscathed.
The prophetic utterance is in the racism itself, not the activism behind it.
There is prophetic reason that we are the world’s TARGETS and have been for some time–and still CAN’T BLEND AND MIX WITH THEM no matter what we do to make it work–or why we can’t ever get away with pretending it’s not going on, but keep repeating it over and over AD NAUSEUM.
[ Flint this, Hell Michigan froze over that; Ferguson activist murders, firing from jobs of so-called “Black radicals” who will later be called lazy and not wanting to work the moment they have to do what they have to do to survive … Carson selling personal products out of the office of HUD secretary, Trump funneling off government tax funds because that’s the only way he knows to pay his own debts, DeVos trying to voucher the public schools out of business and anyone that she does not consider special being put into prison and jail to work as post-reconstruction slaves; good jobs taken off the market and put into the prison systems where people have no choice but to commit crimes in order to find work and a place to live; body-snatching Blacks and selling viable organs and parts for people who ‘deserve’ to live because they have incurable man-made diseases or illnesses, but are too white and rich to die young; lies about jobs numbers and unemployment at “30-year lows” when no such thing is happening, distorted Census bureau numbers that are basically unusable because they don’t reflect facts, but made up scenarios instead. … There, in prison, these harvested laborers will be and are then forced to work for free in order for the rich to get richer and then they are disposable on release; the firing of more than a million federal employees -the majority of whom are Black, shocked, disgusted, and making very little money even with enhances minimum wages – who are not likely to recover from it and will be pawned and shuttled into eternal debt over a government shutdown. The predatory lending, the economic bleeds disguised as “blingy stuff we want” real bad, the poisoned water, the fatty high-content cholesterol foods, the filth and degradation of televised anxieties that are only making us mentally weaker and easier to attack on sight (Jussie Smollett is just the start of many – and he will make the Black and homosexual go back into hiding again while white homosexuals proliferate and grow); federal OZ’s (Oppty Zones) really meant to gentrify Black neighborhoods, Space Cadets and horrific lies about Mexican “aliens” running all over the place killing Americans when it’s only whites pretending to be Mexicans — the constant lies to sow discord between Blacks and Mexicans and cause internal conflict about jobs Mexicans are taking that Black people don’t even want — it’s a full-scale round-up. ETC ETC ET AL ET AL ]
But I get it now. Only one of two things have to happen in the end.
The Lord God ALMIGHTY will have to end it all for all of us and wipe it up and out (and it gets REAL radical from that point going forth).
Or Black Americans and African-American people around the world caught up in the “four winds of the Diasporas” (North, South, East and West) are going to get a backbone and end it. But that won’t happen, because no one is willing to take Dr. King’s or Malcolm X’s bullets to get it done.
They/We have to ask the ultimate question that Dr. King and Malcolm X must have asked themselves at some point, and then answered from the graves: Is it worth it?
But at least I’m not stupid.
Heard it before: She’s “crazy y’all don’t listen to her” … “She be negative and don’t talk hippety-hoppy” … and ‘blah blah blah’. Blah.
But now that I’m here long enough that I see this repeat pattern of history unfolding, and I know now that “crazy is as crazy does“.
They’re (the Trumpean powers that be, that is) are expecting that Black people and Mexicans will follow the ghosted patterns and do some typical protests (hint: “They don’t care.”), some beatching, belly-aching, the usual whining, moaning, groaning, staring each other down to frustration … and then *crickets*.
Until the next time they make a move to force us to internalize what we already know is coming – Defeatism, the worse “ISM” of all.
But it’s all in our little imaginations. We’re making it all up because we can’t prove any of it, and even if we could, because we’re living it, and living with it–who cares?
Ooops, where have I/we heard THAT before?
WHO CARES? ISD – #InternalizedSelfDestruction
Of course, I don’t believe they will prevail in all of this.
There is nothing left BUT Holy scripture to rely on that says it won’t end the way we think it will. Trump is a political trick-off card, not an end game.
He will pass away, having either destroyed the racism by playing his gained hand and having it etched on his behind for all eternity, or …. he will be the catalyst who destroyed any good that America thought it had left, which will lead to its ultimate destruction.
I’m done with Trumpanzeeism, because that much is already prophetically procured.
The Bible says nothing about America in real time except that it is headed for self-destruction for what is has done to God’s Chosen People (not ‘European Jews’), and also for how it sets itself up in the ways of felled Rome as opposed to the ways of God. That much is prophetically indentured, but a lot also depends on decisions we are making now.
People who set themselves up evil kings in the land will ultimately get what they asked for (and there is scripture to back that up).
It won’t be because the ‘partially gay guy’ caused it, which he was WRONG and wrong again for starting and co-starring in that unholy mess; but because we no longer know our heads from our jackasses and have become enablers of destructive internalized explosive devices.
The Lessons To Glean when Shift Happens
It is HEAVILY and ABUNDANTLY clear that there are no real lessons to be learned here.
Millennials, who are just now turning 19 to 21y/o this year, will have to do this all over again.
We’re only a remnant that is left of our Black History, and even motivational speakers can’t come up with a lesson to be learned from it, except for more floss, revisionism, ear-tickling, and cotton candy sayings that don’t ring true.
2 Timothy. For the time will come when they will not endure sound doctrine; but after their own lusts shall they heap to themselves teachers, having itching ears; And they shall turn away their ears from the truth, and shall be turned unto fables.
Trump’s evangelicals are HIGHLY ear-tickled.
That much is established.
All Over There
In this season of illumination of unlearned lessons of the past, let us remember why we’re here again instead of over there.
There is a shift that happens in our personal lives: If we don’t learn from the past, we will see it again. Negative or not, that goes for the overall communities as well.
Repetitive Motion happens even for private persons when we don’t get it. Positive affirmations are truly good-but they’re not going to end it. They have no power or substance to end it. Only by The Word of an Immutable God.
I heard a certain white man whose name remains private say that he stopped listening to “Christian television” because it was nearly all wrong. He also said that took the idol of paintings of “white jesus” off his own walls because he had seen the Lord Himself during an NDE (near death experience…many of us who have ventured close to death and lived to tell it have) and knew for a fact that the Roman depiction was ALL wrong.
I can look at his eyes and tell he’s telling the truth. It’s hard to believe that he did all the stuff he said he did, because his demeanor is not one of a man who did all that horrible stuff. BUT HE LEARNED SOMETHING REAL. Whatever happened to him changed his life for good and it’s not hard to see the difference in a changed life and a fake one, even if he is a Trumper because his assigned crowd to teach won’t listen to him otherwise.
The FRUIT, the manifestation of his life is a sure thing, his doctrine is sound and evident. Yet, he is still bound to world filled with people who think themselves above even the Knowledge of God.
So am I also bound to it in the flesh.
Hear The Conclusion of The Matter
I am done talking about Trump because I see him for JUST what he is: A liar and a thief. A racist and a rapist and adulterer. And he is unashamed and unrepentant, because he still brags about it to one degree or another.
CLEARLY, I see, as a realist, and not through evangelical arrogant self-promoting eyes, not through eyes of fear about some kind of physical loss, or even through Roman Empire supremacist eyes, and not even through Afro-Asiatic curious eyes, but through the eyes of a clear-eyed realist.
I know that a Higher God whole rules even Egypt is untainted by respect of persons or personalities, and untainted by anything that is going on in the world right now that WE can see. God (YahWeh, ‘I AM’) allows us to choose and we often choose wrong, but grace and mercy is extended to us above all else. This is good and VERY GOOD.
God may say one thing to someone and something else to another, but what is yours is for YOU. Same God, but He deals with all people on the level they are currently on, and that includes Trump. One lady I know said “God will let you believe you whatever you need to believe if it gets you where you need to be“.
He (Trump) can’t see himself for what he really is, for how he is seen and viewed in the world as a destructive and impetuous child and a narcissist with episodes of psychotic delusions of grandeur, and that he is only allowed for what his ego will buy for him at this time.
Fear and weakness do not ‘trump’ facts, pun intended.
He can’t see that he does not rule the world like he thinks he does (‘thank you Nancy Pelosi’).
He does what he does because he simply doesn’t know any better and because “we” allow the tantrums and emotionally accommodate the toxicity. However, Pelosi just delivered him a reality check and a clear dose of hard Truth MEDICINE about CHECKS AND BALANCES in government.
Equipped with that knowledge, I bow to the immutable and unquestionable Will of God.
The game is on and it doesn’t stop until He stops it.
He’s already decided what is to be done, He knows what is down the road for all of us-and atheism and disbelief doesn’t change that. It’s His world, and we’re all squirrels (lil’bats) tryna get a nut. Unfortunately, for some, we just aren’t going to be able to use Obama or gays or even Mexicans and aliens or ‘immigrants’ as leverage when it’s time to answer for our own actions.
No Matter What Happens Now …
I also know now that Black America is in NO position to save itself.
It never was.
That, too, is a reasonable matter of other implications–but this “nation” or “race” of people did not position itself in America to be self-operating, self-sufficient, or independent of the rising tides of other’s “boats” and/or the timely constrictions of class warfare and the structuring and restructuring of imperialistic Roman Empire Americanism.
Call me crazy, try to prove me wrong all you dare … but right now, no one can find the lie in what was just said. #UNTWIST yourself from the head games.
May God help those of us who don’t see what is coming.
[ In November of 2016, I stated that this hour was coming in which we would see Trump fail. In February of 2019, no one need pretend they didn’t see the economic crash of 2020 that is coming while the nation high-rides on Trump’s fabricated jobs numbers and self-tauted “30-year unemployment lows” in the economy, because it did not happen. The repercussions of Trump’s bad decisions and policies haven’t quite hit yet, but at least the “so-called ‘gay’ President” is out of office, praise de lawd. ]
There is an ultimate and final answer: The Swift Return of the Lord.
It’s the only answer there is left now.
The Leftist Elders of The Indomitable Radical Right
“I’m so happy that I didn’t sneeze. And they were telling me –. Now, it doesn’t matter, now. It really doesn’t matter what happens now.
I left Atlanta this morning, and as we got started on the plane, there were six of us. The pilot said over the public address system, “We are sorry for the delay, but we have Dr. Martin Luther King on the plane. And to be sure that all of the bags were checked, and to be sure that nothing would be wrong with on the plane, we had to check out everything carefully. And we’ve had the plane protected and guarded all night.” And then I got into Memphis. And some began to say the threats, or talk about the threats that were out. What would happen to me from some of our sick white brothers? Well, I don’t know what will happen now. We’ve got some difficult days ahead. But it really doesn’t matter with me now, because I’ve been to the mountaintop.
And I don’t mind.
Like anybody, I would like to live a long life. Longevity has its place. But I’m not concerned about that now. I just want to do God’s will. And He’s allowed me to go up to the mountain. And I’ve looked over. And I’ve seen the Promised Land. I may not get there with you. But I want you to know tonight, that we, as a people, will get to the promised land!“
NOTE: Mountaintop Politics: The Reality
Thank you, Dr. King.
As a frontline beneficiary of the Civil Rights Movement of the 1960s, I was a child -merely 9- at the time you died.
Oh, maybe you would have patted me on the head and said “What do you want to be when you grow up little girl.” And I’d have said “An interior decorator.” Fo’sho.
And maybe I would have heard from you, as an Elder of the Moses Generation, what I did not hear from others. Maybe you would have said, with a smile, not wanting to crush MY dream, “Now you go on little girl, and get that education and you will get there. You will succeed because God will give you the desires of your heart.”
Thank you, Dr. King. That ain’t what THEY told me, but I thank you for the latent vision.
Not because it’s another Black History Month in 2019, do I thank you, but I thank you because I had no idea of the impact you made until I was impacted by it. Now I lived to hear your own granddaughter that you never met yet say “My granddaddy was right.”
If no one else cares ever again, I thank you for putting your life on the line as you did, as God had you to do, to move the nation farther ahead now than where it would have been if you had never taken the risk and heeded your calling as we must now learn and heed our own.
My daddy would never have done that for me. He wasn’t a Black man like that. Like you are.
And now, [in my Maxine Waters voice] ‘I retain the balance of my time’.
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